I'm yet holding on!!

Great things, great year, great expectations!!!  Time is flying by, but I am still in a place of calmness in my life right now.  No, everything is not going as I would like them too, but it is all going according to plan. God's plan.  I am slowly coming to the realization and understanding that worrying about a situation is not going to change the outcome, just my level of stress and health.  Now, I'm not saying that I have completely come to a place where I have learned to let go and let God, but I'm starting to, and that's a plus in itself.

Many times, we seek to achieve things in our life and get frustrated and discouraged when the process takes to long or the goal is unattainable.  But at some point we have to accept the fact that maybe our life isn't supposed to go in that direction.  That's not always a bad thing.  Take comfort in knowing that there is a reason things didn't work out that way.  You may not see it at first, but one day, you will understand why it was so hard to try and do that.  Learn to be content with where you are right now.  Yes, in your too small home with the rent 2 months past due.  Yes, with your under-employed yet working like a slave self.  Yes, even in midst of trying to figure out what you and your two children are going to eat for dinner the next few nights.  Because regardless of how bad your situation is, someone, somewhere has it a whole lot worse than you.  That is a sad thought to think when you consider your own circumstances, isn't it. Thank God for the struggles you have, cause to be frankly honest, you don't want theirs.

Be Blessed!! :o)

But he's my BEST FRIEND!!!!

Man!! This year has already full of the most unexpected things!!! Wow!! I can't wait to see what's next.  But I think the most surprising, yet wonderful thing was the birth of a blossoming love.  I didn't plan it, nor was I even looking for it.  And I must admit, that it is down-right scary!!!  Why?  Because he is my best friend!!!  We have been skin tight for over three years now and there is nothing that I wouldn't do for him and him for me.  Neither of us set out to date each other, much less fall in love.  But it has happened.  And it is wonderful! We don't know how this will all play out r even if it is safe for us to relax and enjoy it, but we can't deny our feelings and because we have been friend for so long, we are sure to not mess it up.  I know this is pretty mussy and not really like me at all, but when they say you'll find true love in the place you never expected, "they" were right.  He is and extension of me, of who I am, and a reflection of who I desire to become.  Because we have been friends for so long, I already cared deeply about him and only want what's best for him, but to think that the best is me-WOW!! He finished my sentences, my thoughts, my expressions.  There is nothing I can't talk to him about and he gets me when everyone else is trying to figure out what planet I came from. LOL.  There is no one more suited for me than him. And he is the perfect gentleman that I have been waiting for.  I dare say that he is my knight is shining armor. And he feels that same way about me.  Thank you Lord for this gift.  So far the most precious one this year.  I truly believe that this rib has finally found the rib cage I belong in. ;-)  Be blessed!!

Expect the Great!!

Last year was a very difficult year for me.  I battle with emotions and feelings that I have never felt before.  For the first time in my life I even contemplated suicide.  My outlook on life had become so grim that I could no longer see a reason to continue.  I wanted to give up and just leave everything and everyone that counted on me.  My children, my family, my friends, my life.  I can honestly say that although I doubted Him so much over the past year, God kept me.  Without Him, I would not be here today.  Life is such a topsy turvy mystery.  And you will never truly know what's will happen from one day tot he next, but if you hold on and stay stronger, you can make it.

This next year, I am expecting great things to happen.  I am expecting to overcome some struggles that I have been dealing with most of my life.   I am expecting to prosper in areas that I long stopped believing that I could prosper in.  I am expecting to grow exponentially further that I ever have.  I am expecting that every encounter and relationship I have will further propel me forward into the great that is planned for me.  I am expecting fear to no longer be the force that drives my every decision.  But most importantly, I am expecting God to continue to prove Himself to me and be my source.


I stopped making New Year's resolution a long time ago because I realize that I can't resolve to do anything that I can't expect to happen.  Why resolve to lose weight, when I don't expect to gain any?  Why resolve to live a healthy lifestyle, when I don't expect to get sick?  Why resolve to love more, when I don't expect to hate anyone?  In other words, I need to expect great things before I can resolve to accept them.  In this New Year, I will expect confidence, I will expect prosperity, and I will expect to be a blessing and be blessed.


What are you expecting this year?  Be Blessed!!